My Thoughts

Sometimes Love Hurts

Have you ever loved so much it hurt? Loved those unlovely souls who need a tender touch from God? I’m talking about the people no one wants to think about, like the woman imprisoned for murder, the lowly, blind beggar in India, or the drug addict on the street corner. Those kinds of unlovely.

How do we come to a point where we can show God’s love without pulling back in dismay? Come to think of it, how do we learn to respond in an appropriate Christian way to the horrors and heart-rending monstrosities experienced by the unlucky ones?

I have. I have learned.

I have cried with a woman who killed her child, lost a part of myself to someone who feared death, and knelt beside a sleeping child whose mother abandoned her.

There is a method of spiritual growth that allows us to have that Mother Teresa kind of passion. A passion for love, not just any love, but the kind that moves your heart to tears and your feet to action.

Can you love cross-culturally? Give time to one of another nationality? Allow them to live in your home? Listen for hours to one who weeps over an abused childhood so different from yours? Travel the world to look into the eyes of a lonely widow?

Yes, you can learn to love. I have. By God’s grace, I love. Not perfectly, but, with His guidance through my life, I have learned to love. It sometimes hurts so deeply that I think my heart will stop, but it hasn’t. My spirit just keeps on loving, more and more, deeper and deeper.

I cannot love on my own. I am too selfish, it is possible only by allowing God’s love to flow through me. God is the source of love and He alone can teach about true, everlasting love.

You are loved,


Even then, should I rejoice?


When opportunity brings joy,
should I rejoice?
When daybreak brings tranquility,
should sadness enter in?
What if around the world there’s pain?
What if a mother’s under strain
to feed her child?
Should I rejoice,
and laugh and play?

When morning comes to brighten me
while children play around my knee
and my heart sings songs
of needed peace,
should I rejoice?
What if a child is beaten down,
beneath a father’s drunken hand,
too weak to cry, to understand?
Should peace surround me
even then?

Can love sit still,
hold back the tears?
Does love need times,
small dots in years
to listen first,
in God rejoice
before the raging battle
starts again?

Kathryn Spurgeon
#4308 7/25/12


Ladies Retreat at the Cabin

Sharing with women, walking through the pine trees, eating delicious spaghetti chicken, what more could you ask for? And yes, God’s Spirit was certainly there. He led us to understand more truth about Him. More understanding of His awesome love for us.

Women from Antioch Baptist Church met at Pa’s Cabin in the Woods for a retreat on April 1st and 2nd. A special candle light dinner on Friday night and all day teaching on Saturday. Long day for me as I taught because allergies gave me a terrible sore throat, and since I don’t have strong vocal chords anyway, the women had to be quiet to hear me! Tough duty. But they pulled through and opened up and shared from their hearts. Saturday, it seemed, was much more relaxed. I love teaching, especially to women who love the Lord so much. Thanks to all the wonderful women who put this together! You did an awesome job!

My sister, Kay, drove with me down there ( about 6 hour trip one way!) which made the trip easier. Thanks, Kay! Here are a few pictures taken from the retreat.

A few of the ladies
Ma, the ringleader

My Thoughts

Antioch Here I Come

 This weekend I’m driving with my sis, Kay, to Antioch Baptist Church, in Carthage, Texas! I’m so excited. My counselor sister, Keren, and I have given eight retreats for women about dealing with emotions, but this is the first ladies retreat based on my Bible study, Love From the Inside Out. I’ve taught the study several times at Henderson Hills Baptist Church in Edmond, OK. And this semester we have a class at Temple Baptist Church in Shawnee, OK, with an awesome group of ladies! I love ‘em.

 Love From the Inside Out reveals steps on how love can grow in your life. It includes stories of incarcerated women who taught me about true godly love.

This weekend’s retreat started out with four ladies who wanted me to come teach the book. Now there are 18 enrolled! I’m really looking forward to spending time with them. We’re having it at the cabin in the piney woods. What fun! Maybe we’ll go fishing, too!

Please pray for the women attending, that I’ll speak words from God, and that He will move in our hearts.


Fake Love

True love versus false love. How can we tell the difference? Both may be as attractive as roses, but one is the dime-store plastic kind and the other a fragrant red beauty. We need something more substantial than a temporary solution, wider than an Oklahoma sunset, and deep enough to fill the void inside.  Actually, we need a God’s kind of love. Nothing else will completely and always satisfy. Nothing.

I’ll be driving to Shawnee once a week to teach a wonderful group of women at Temple Baptist Church. My Bible study, Love From the Inside Out, is about true, godly love, the kind Jesus exemplified. Part of the study evolved from women prisoners I counseled and the amazing truths they taught me about love.

Please pray for me and these 21 women as we study and share together – and as we learn to love others, even those difficult people in our lives.