I haven’t blogged in several weeks, partly due to grieving over my brother’s death from cancer. I will never fully recover. He was a godly man, cherished family member, and precious saint. An example to me in many ways.
Another time-consuming distracting week was our vacation to Disney World. What a joyous time with my family! I walked more than I thought I could, rested in the afternoon and walked some more! I will post some pictures later. We also had Easter, visitors from overseas, HongKun from Korea and Reiko from Japan, and doctor visits to keep us busy.
On April 4th I have another Pet Scan to see if my cancer has returned (done three months after the last chemo/radiation treatment) although I won’t find out the results for a week. However, I have been feeling pretty well. Some days I am more tired than others, but I think that is part of the recovery process. It could be just getting older, as they say, but the naps feel really good! I am cutting back now and taking a nap only every other day.
My Aunt Frances, 86 years old, was just diagnosed with bladder cancer. For a healthy family, all this has been very shocking. She is the third person in six months. And as for me, my heart is very heavy. I want to feel God’s strong presence now more than ever, and be found faithful. I found a verse that encouraged me: Psalm 106:43-45.
“Many times He delivered them, but they rebelled against Him by their counsel, and were brought low for their iniquity. Nevertheless, He regarded their affliction when He heard their cry; and for their sake He remembered His covenant and relented according to the multitude of His mercies.” NKJ.
Same verses, NIV version: “Many times he delivered them, but they were bent on rebellion and they wasted away in their sin. Yet he took note of their distress when he heard their cry; for their sake he remembered his covenant and out of his great love he relented.”
To me, this means that many times I rebelled or failed to listen to God, yet, nevertheless, or even so, He has heard my cry. The “nevertheless” is my word for the day. Even though I have not always obeyed God as I wish I had, nevertheless He hears me. Because He loves me. Enough to remember His covenant. Now isn’t that a great loving God?
- The Wait: Choosing to Soar (hispeaceinthestorm.wordpress.com)